the bell has rang

I'm so stupid. it took too long before I saw through your lying pink clouds. There are many people who lie, and they are sharpening there knives. Ready to attack. I feel the silent war, it sucks all the blood to my head. That makes me angry, you sneaky mouths. I want to mistreat you and show you how it feels to be the one who gets hurt. My nights are short, my thoughts long. Revert to the pain I embrace, I am a very cheerful person.

Yesterday was fun, we watched a movie together totally stoned. Even though I had more laughs with Simon his head then the movie, laughing is so much virtue. I really like laughing and smoking. It's amazing how relieved it makes me feel. Empty but in a good way. Away from all the rats and vultures who dominate my life, away from the crocodile that has torn me into shreds, away from my mom that I miss but push away. I am a girl with baggage, but I will never deny the burdens that I wear or let somebody else to pay for them.

I have many plans, I want my life back among the living. No longer will I let them sit on my head, so get your rotting toes out of my mouth. This is my life, and I will no longer clean up the vomit, and shit of others who have done wrong.

remember: A TRUE FRIEND STABS YOU IN THE FRONT.