heart disease, vomit

-I'm pushing pills in my throat, to justify the bad things.-

Hmm I've misjudged my chance with you I guess, but that was not quite intended. But secretly, I walk away from everything that could hurt me. I like to build cages around me, protective in my own world.

I'm giving you one more chance, and I will show myself as I am. Even though I think you will never understand what I'm all about, who knows there is more to that crazy smile? I have so much and so little to say. I know my heart doens't belong with you. But I do feel what you want to give me, and it is time for me to open my mouth. And taste the freedom of not loving souls.

Pff, sometimes I wonder what I'm looking for. I would love to find unconditional love, but I fly high and murder slow. I want to share with nobody but secretly I want to find a sick mind that I can let inside mine. But once you know my sick mind, will you be able to keep in your intestines? Can you still sleep with someone like me around you?