little blonde girl

I am ridiculously scared little girl, afraid to swim far into the sea. Afraid to sail on the river because of the crocodiles.

I'm stuck in a life that always seems to be the same, and the day that I overcome my fear of the deep waters, the day I will be sailing around those crocodiles and leave them for dead that day I will be free of all pain and breathlessness. My life is so weird, my thoughts are sick rather than tired, they are rather sad than happy. And I come up with possible endings, so many stories that would make everything better and more beautiful. But then I open my eyes, and weep my pillow wet. I've had it with the swollen eyelids and puffiness of pain.

I will not weep for the bastards who have hurt me. I'm going to look them in the eye, and let the guilt burn their skull and finally step away and leave their rotting hearts and diseased body.

Monster Magnet is licking my ears and I like it fine.This body needs sleep, but my head is so excited.

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when I'm drunk I dance, when my brain no longer walks the earth than I do weird things.