nobody cares about whiny babies

-I am the crocodile in my life, and I feel drowned in self pity.-

Call me a weeper, call me an idiot. But I have a heart that can't be silent. I am speechless and lost in a world which is not rosy. I feel left out, I don't belong, I flutter from here to there. No wonder I'm so tired, it's hard to walk around on a smooth world without slipping. But what if you keep sliding and never find stability?

I know it's time to move forward. I know it's going to be hard but I'll have to let go. I know I should be mature, but what if I don't want to ? I don't know what I deserve, I don't know what to do, I know nothing. I remember better times, but I can't seem to bring myself to the happy places that I had found.

I can complain, I can cry and I can fight. I can walk away, I can kill myself and I can live my life to the fullest. I can do anything I want, but I can't make a choice. Unbelievable selfish and stupid that is what I find myself to be. I'm strong but behave as a weakling and I'm a cry baby that cries out for attention. I need love and I sure have a sweet heart, so why tell me why I keep falling apart ?