Again an evening drinking beer with friends, laughing and shouting. Enjoying the intoxication of smoke which I call friendship. it always amazed me what a nice bunch you are and I think after all this time I can say for sure. Fuck the world I'm hanging with you guys tonight.
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However,
there was also disappointment on saturday. I know why you're angry and the reason is unfounded. For my text was not even about you, unless the phrase stating that you had talent. I will continue to greet you, doens't matter how many times I will be talking to your back. Because I will always do what my guts say is right. I know it's stupid of me for there ain't much good coming out of your mouth when talking about me. It's weird, all I hear is people shoutin' at me about what kind of nasty things you said about me (again?!). I've never heard anything positive. Tell me why I thought you were a friend of mine? Because the way I see it you just hate my guts, just a stupid girl who can fuck off because she was honest. If you can not stand me then why in gods name did you ever kept in contact with me.
That's all I have to say, in my eyes you were always a friend, still . I'll never be angry and never will be. I have learned that being angry is a waste of time so do not expect a war, because you won't get it. I am a little girl with feelings and a lot to give to her friends. I don't deserve to be kicked and beaten so often. So go search for another punching bag because, I'm on a different path.
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