relief and tears

-It's like my eyes smoked too, bad Sue bad girl.-

Today I visited my new psychologist, at first I thought of it as a bad thing. But after three hours talking, and listing all my problems, and to decompose them completely. I felt it was good for me, it feels like a big step in the right direction. I also learned new breathing exercises, they should calm me down and learn to look within myself. She said I had to be honest to you, because oh boy, we have talked a lot about you. But only good things, and I greatly acknowledged that you are truly close to my heart. If you cross my path someday I'll tell you everything I want to tell and then you can act the way you think is good, and I can close my story. She also said that I'm dealing with many things at once, and that it is impossible to study now. Sow I need to let all pressure slide off me, and concentrate on getting better, and feeling better. She thought I was a brilliant person, with eyes that really live. She saw that I am someone who has much in store. And so on, and so on...

I could talk for hours about this blissful afternoon.

-Baby, this will all be yours.-