I'm not as blind as they would like me to be

After a turbulent night, the answers are still far away and very realistic concerns caught me by suprise. But I can't help to laugh, In this life I stand alone, and finding a lover is the hardest thing, 'cause I ain't searching Haha. But I know that one day I will get rid of everyone's ugly heads and then I'll strike them with astonishment. I know I'm invisible right now, but give me some time and I'll rip you all to shreds. I'm not just that little girl, I'm that little blonde retardted girl who doens't bend for the ones who try to intoxicate her with pink saliva. To me it seems everybody is suffocating trying to exsist, but I hop through life and I prefer the pain than act like I don't care. I'd rather be a weeper then a liar, I'd rather be a a murderer then a backstabber. I prefer being on my own, I prefer not to trust people anymore. But my perseverance is more like cotton candy, I will always be caught in the golden cage of lies, sweet talk and them who will grant me my desires to then run away. But the torture is known and the lesson almost learned. I got greedy hands and a wet tongue, but those awkward moments will be the ones I cherish. I will never beg or please, and I refuse to crawl on my knees unless for the purpose of enjoyment.

I had to vomit at the thought of all the saliva in my ears and fingers in my throat. Gladly I'll sell my soul to the devil, with pleasure I'll break all your toes, prop me full of pills, tie me down to my bed. You will never touch my sick mind, I'll drink my poison everyday.

I'm a mess you'll never be able to put straight.

Im a mess, what can i say?

Im a mess every night and day

Im a mess if i go to work

Im a mess and too big of a flirt

Im a mess when im laying down

Im a mess when im out of the town

Im a mess whats it all about?

Im a mess so just put me out

Im a mess when i talk on the phone

Im a mess if im all alone

Im a mess and i drink too much

Im a mess and im so outta touch

Im a mess when you are around

Im a mess and im falling down

Im a mess when im thinking of you

Im a mess and im turning blue

Im a mess, Im a mess, Im a mess....

-Fabulous disaster-