bullshittin' the day away

(Stole this song from my sweet Michelle's profile, I'm in love with this song.. I'll marry it someday !)

Amputate my fingers and drill holes in my brain, I can no longer touch. I'm angry, mad at each phalanx, I am stuck, I'm fucking stuck. And the Ducky boys are yelling in my ears that it's a fine day ... but I don't seem to get that part ?!

I ask myself why today nothing is moving forward but secretly I know what's going on, dumb blonde retard!

I sit here with my hands in my hair, I drool out of ignorance and I wait. I'm addicted to pain, I'm addicted to the torture of love. They pull my hair, my fingers strangle me. It hurts me, every blank sigh, excruciating pain to always be the brokenhearted girl.

I want to run away, I want to be alone. they are better than me, and I'm just a pathetic creature that makes their entertainment. I'm no more than a piece of meat that is damaged, a piece of meat that nobody wants to touch. I'm confused, I'm blurred, I want to disappear never to return to this hellhole. 'Cause all I found here is just loneliness and disgust.

People are the most disgusting creatures on this earth. My tears hide my fingers and I can't write because off the panic attacks, they fucking dominate my evening again, and again ...

I'll wait, and I'll believe the lies.